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Have I got too fat during this pregnancy... | Pregnancy

It's a Sunday evening as I write this and we have just had the most wonderful family weekend together. Snow days, trips to London and family naps on the sofa. It has been blissful but as I write this at the end of a wonderful few days with my family, I am in tears. I am crying over something that some will think is such an over reaction and something so stupid to be upset about but for me it is such a huge thing. This evening I made the huge mistake of weighing myself and working out how much weight I have put on during my 23 weeks of pregnancy. I have put on 8.8kg. This to some may seem like nothing and so many of you out there are probably questioning why I am upset as I am growing a baby so shouldn't be worrying about my weight and you're right I SHOULDN'T be worrying about my weight but I am. I am and I have been ever since I had my 8 week booking appointment because it was at that appointment that I was told that because my BMI was 0.5 over where is deemed 'healthy' I would be referred to the 'Lifestyle Clinic' and I would be monitored by them for my whole pregnancy. 0.5 of a point has deemed me as unhealthy and means I have to go along to a special appointment once every few weeks to talk about healthy eating, exercise and how to manage my weight whilst I am pregnant. 






Now I understand why the NHS offer this service and I can imagine that for some people it is really helpful and they find the service a wonderful thing but for me all it brings is undue stress and guilt. 

During this pregnancy I have been SO much more active than I was when I was pregnant with Pickle and I have felt so much better for it. When I was pregnant last I suffered with horrendous SPD and was signed off work from 25 weeks pregnant. This time round I am currently 23 week and haven't had any sign of SPD. I am still going to Zumba and going swimming once a week. Our David Lloyd membership has been a god send and the perfect place for us to not only keep fit but for us to spend time as a family together. Not only have I been going to the gym but I’ve going out on walks with Pickle and generally running around after him. So why am I feeling like the worst person in the world for the weight I have put on?!?! This is why I am so upset. I feel like I have been doing everything I can but I know that when I go to my next 'lifestyle' appointment I will almost get a telling off and will have to listen to someone telling me about all of the things I already know and am doing. 

I also feel a little bit like 'woe is me' as well. I have been speaking to lot of people I know and they have put off 2,3 or even 4 stone during their pregnancies yet they have been left alone and haven't been made to feel like a bad person. If only I had started my pregnancy 0.5 of a point lower on my BMI then I wouldn't be sitting here crying and feeling like a huge fat whale who is hurting her unborn baby by putting on 8kg. All of this because of my BMI when I fell pregnant. If I was within the normal range (0.5 lower) then the NHS guidelines state that I could put on upto 12.5kg without anyone batting an eye lid! How ridiculous is that?!?!?!? BMI is such a huge pile of rubbish anyway as even when I was a skinny little size 12 when I was 16 I still had a high BMI because I danced so therefore had huge leg muscles, also don't think the fact that I have always had massive boobs has helped either.  

There isn't really much point in this post apart from somewhere for me to vent my upset, anger, guilt, whatever it is I am actually feeling about all of this. All that is left for me to do now is to worry about how much weight I am going to put on for the rest of this pregnancy and feel like the worst person in the world for doing so. 

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12 comments:

  1. I wouldn't let it worry you. You sound like you're keeping active so don't let it worry you. There is so much pressure on mums and mums to be in this country. I read a great article with Helen Skelton yesterday on how different being a mum is in France! We need to be more laid back rather than judging others!

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  2. Sending so much love to you. I didn’t weigh myself during either of my pregnancies because I know I would worry. Anything that gives you extra stress is not a good thing. Any weight can be worried about later now just focus on you and your little ones x

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  3. Everyone needs a good vent and these appointments sound like a waste of your and their time. You are being active and having fun with your family while growing your baby. If I were you I cancel the appointment and tell them you won’t be attending anymore as it is having a negative effect on your emotional well-being - at the end of the day they can’t force your

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  4. Aww don't beat yourself up about the weight. It's expected when you are pregnant, just stop weighing yourself.

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  5. I am so not a fan of BMI because it doesn't take in to account people who have high muscle mass - and different body shapes. I hope that you feel better about it soon, you sound like you are being really active and that's more important.

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  6. I'm sorry that you're feeling stressed out by having gained weight. It sounds like you are doing all the right things which is what the lifestyle clinic should be about, not about telling you off because you've gained weight in pregnancy x

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  7. Oh please don't let this upset you. I HATE BMI, it doesn't take into account anything other than height and weight, which does not give the bigger picture at all! Just enjoy your pregnancy and worry about the weight later, or don't. Either way, you're doing a great job!

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  8. Oh darling- I think that you should stop worrying. If you know that you are doing all of the right things then there is nothing more you can do. Just try and enjoy the pregnancy and when you go to those appointments, just tell them what you are doing and be confident in yourself that you are doing all you can xx

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  9. Ah bless. I can see why you are upset :( That's ridiculous though, seriously. Unless you'd put on 50 extra kilos, I don't see the point of this. It just gives pregnant women one more thing to worry about and get stressed over. I say ignore them - you don't HAVE to go to the clinic, do you? I would put your foot down and tell them straight! x

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  10. Oh lovely try not to worry, easier said than done I know. I agree, I think the NHS shouldn't really be adding the worry of weight into the mix when pregnancy is already such a worrying time.

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  11. I would honestly ignore them. If the issue was the 0.5kg and then you could've put on 12.5 then just think you're still under the 12kg so you're fine. And even if you weren't, you're growing a person, it's allowed.

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  12. Oh wow! I honestly cannot understand why you are being monitored, It's not as if you're a flaming whale is it?

    It is your right to refuse those appointments if you do not feel they bring enough benefit.

    Do not let them make you feel like this! You are active and that matters most over a couple of kg. xx

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