Going back to work... | Blog

I can't believe that in just over a month I will be back at work. My maternity leave seems to have flown by! It feels like yesterday that I said goodbye to my branch of a high street bank and hello to nappies and sleepless nights when in fact it was almost 9 months ago and by the time I go back to work Smidge will be almost 10 months old. That is a month longer than I took off when I had Pickle and I am having really mixed feelings about going back.

Part of me can't wait to get back to work. I like my job and I love the fact that for three days a week (I only work part time) I get to have an hours lunch break where I can read a magazine, eat some food and drink a hot coffee.Work, for me, has always been the way that I have been able to get a bit of me time and to remember who Ami is outside of being a mum and a wife. Obviously the money is going to be a huge positive as maternity pay is a bit pants but the money isn't the main reason for me going back. Going back is going to be a good thing for not only me but for Smidge as well.

Pickle went to my Mum (who is a childminder) 2 days a week and my mother in law 1 day a week since he was 9 months old. He is now 4 years old and the most outgoing, confident little boy and I honestly think that is because I left him from quote a young age. We didn't have to go through any separation anxiety or crying when I left and I think that he because he learnt from a very young age that even though Mummy left, she would always come back. Smidge, so far, hasn't shown any signs of getting upset when I leave him or anything like that so I am hoping by going back to work when I am and leaving him (like I did with Pickle) with my mum and my mother in law, he will become as confident and outgoing as Pickle is.

The down side of going back to work is that I am really going to miss all the little things that I've come to enjoy and cherish. Walking Pickle to school in the sunshine with Smidge napping in the pram is one of my fondest memories from my maternity leave but as I will be dropping Pickle at school and then heading straight off to work I will have to drive. Silly little things like knowing that Mondays were my day of just me and Smidge. Until September when Pickle starts full time school, the only time I will get with Smidge on my own will be Thursday morning whilst Pickle is at pre school. Don't get me wrong, I love that I get to spend time with Pickle and I am seriously dreading September when he will be at school full time and I'll only get to spend time with him at the weekends (sobbb!!!) but I still feel like I will miss my days where it is just me and my Smidge.

Going back to work is something that is filled with conflicting feelings for me and there isn't really much point to this post other than it being a bit of a mind dump on a day when I need to get everything out of my head. But, I suppose my message is to say that it's okay to feel good about going back to work. You see so much about people dreading going back and being sad about leaving their babies but it's okay if you are actually a little bit excited about going back to work and getting a little piece of you back even though you will miss you baby immensely.

What are your thoughts about going back to work or how did you feel when you went back? I'd love to know so please leave me a comment with your thoughts.

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